“Don’t you think I would spend more time with you if you could make me happier doing that? As it is now, you’re so volatile that half of my conscious time is spent thinking of ways to keep you cheerful and to not piss you off….
You know we have a great time together when you’re happy….but when you’re not and you treat my like crap, sometimes I wonder why I go all the way to your house or office to see you….
It doesn’t matter what mood I’m in….whether *we* are happy or not is always dictated by whether *you* are happy….”
I try to be better. I try to be normal. I try to be happy. But sometimes I think that you may be better off without me. As much as it hurts me, I wonder if it would be so wrong to just let you go. I can’t afford to promise you that I’ll try anymore. I can’t afford to disappoint you anymore. I can’t afford to see your hurting words anymore. I love you, but it’s not enough.
Fluffypinkclouds's Weblog 
oooooof, i know exactly how you feel. . . . it’s like me and my ex, when we were great – we were great….
when we were bad – well it was like beirout on a bad day….
the best thing i ever did was let go , and after 6 years it was the hardest thing I ever did. We were together since we were 17, he was my first love, and then it all ended.. thank god I say now.. because I realise now I was unhappy more than happy in that relationship, 90% of my time I spent thinking, oh god I pissed him off, that arguement was my fault, i started that fight, why didn’t i just walk away and shut up…. but then my mother told me ‘ love is never being unhappy ‘ … and very very wise words from a very wise woman… I’m in another relationship now, and we have had minor tiffs that result in great makeup sex, infact he just walks away, or I do.. we say we’re sorry, we don’t hold grudges for days…. he treats me like a princess and if we do have an arguement it’s about where to order take out from, or wat movie to watch…. and those are the things that make me love him…….
good luck. . i hope you come to a decision.. it will be hard.. but follow your heart.. and use your head…… ask yourself ‘ am i really happy? ‘ ‘ do I deserve to be treated like this? ‘ ‘ could someone else make me happier ‘ if any of the questions are yes…. move on…… hard , blunt, i know….but true. xxx