I haven’t been able to stop knitting recently. I haven’t been able to do any work recently. My research has come to a standstill and I seem to be too afraid to resume it. The minute I start thinking about it, my heart races and I’m almost overcome with anxiety. I hope Dr. Koh can save me because it’s a downward spiral that I’m struggling to get out of. Knitting is my getaway. The click click click of creating something new allows me to feel like less of a failure, as if I’m actually achieving something in my life. If only that were true. It’s May now. Just thinking about the time sets my heart racing again. I’m out of Stilnox and can only wish for the best every night.
Anyway, to happier thoughts.
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The hot weather has prompted me to finally cut my hair. Hwai says no more pontianak hair, yay! Maybe I’ll keep it this way.
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