Fat

No, I am not fat. In fact, I have learned to shut out all the negative criticism telling me that I am. After all those times enduring gastric pains and the butt jabs, I think I would rather have some belly flab than starve myself again.

Hwai says I am overweight. Actually, according to my BMI, I may be slightly so. But that doesn’t mean I am unhealthy, which he also claims that I am, because he thinks I eat junk all the time. To be honest, I’ve cut down on junk drastically. Because yes, they are terribly unhealthy, and yes, tight clothes are horribly uncomfortable, you know. However, being skinnier DOES NOT necessarily mean that one is healthy kay. Skinny people are also prone to high cholesterol, high uric acid, bla bla bla. So there.

My point is, I’ve come to love myself the way I am, flab and scars and all. Christina Aguilera’s “Beautiful” says it all.

But loving myself the way I am doesn’t mean I don’t have to do anything about maintaining the way I am. Hence, the recent mania(?!) with exercise. Rock climbing (more about that in another post), squash, and the gym. By the way, my arms and shoulders are totally sore as I am writing this. Courtesy of the gym, of course.

I’m attempting climbing, despite my fear of falling to my death (you never know if you’ll land on your neck/head, mattress or not!!).

I play squash with friends every week (hopefully), even though my eye hand coordination still betrays me every now and then, leading to flashbacks of my totally sports-incompetent days back in school.

I go to the gym as often as I can, though not often enough according to Ethan, my trainer. Gah Ethan, stop pressing buttons on my treadmill!

Oh, plus I’m in the KL Marathon next month (argh! am not prepared to run 10km!) Which should be motivating me to go to the gym more often/run more often, but is not. Maybe I should get someone to dangle some food in front of me during the run…hmm…

After writing all this down, I realise…how the hell do I have time to do much else? Hello…research a calling! But if you’d like to join me in any of my endeavours 😀 drop me a comment lol.