Numb

Am numb from pain. Was driving around town with my dog. Silent except for the sound of the car crunching on gravel. Anger has turned into hurtful pain, aching along with every dull beat of the heart. Who would know where I was in that moment and what I was doing? Who would know if I was dead or alive?

Now I am back home obviously writing this. But nobody knows. And I am so tired of the pain. I can feel myself plunging back into darkness. But nobody cares.

My married friend with a baby has something enviable. She has a family.

My workaholic friend has something enviable. She has a loving boyfriend and a career.

My single friend has something enviable. She is surrounded by good friends.

I have everything, and yet, at the end of the day, I have absolutely nothing. Nothing except for silence and this dull aching in my heart.