Happy

I’ve not felt this way for so long that my heart couldn’t even recognize it. Truly happy.

I’ve not felt this way for so long that my heart was initially afraid. What did I do to deserve it?

Because the past few years have told me that I made The Gardener miserable. That I was hard to love. That I was emotional quicksand.

But he makes it so easy to love him. Now. I’m bracing myself for the worst. And preparing to reveal my worst. But right now, today, I’m happy. I’m loved again, and actually able to feel it, touch it, revel in it. Thank you, universe. I’m ever so grateful.

These are, at long last, tears of joy.